so i basically haven't been on xanga for a year. i was pretty sure that i was never going to write in it again, yet for some reason i felt like starting. A LOT has happened and changed this year, i wouldn't even know where to begin. but as for right now..my summer was pretty good, the most amazing part of it was going to Scotland, and i miss it sooooo much. i met some amazing people and had such a good time performing seussical at church hill theatre. i can't believe we're performing it agaaain this coming weekend. i kinda miss work..i don't go back til september but i know it's gonna be hard to work go to school and be enslaved at the theater. i just hope i can still work as much as i can this year, cuz what can be better than dressing up as your favorite disney characters and play with little kids all day? haha it's just fun. well...it's senior year! i'm pretty damn exciteddd. it's started out as a pretty good year so far, even tho some of my friends are going through some hard times, which i wish that i could help them out in any way possible but it's just one of those things that kind of has to heal itself in time. i'm really hoping that i can go to missouri in november with alli so i can see that someone who i can't seem to get out of my head since i got back.

yeah..life is completely different than it was last time i wrote. i haven't gone up to maryland since may and i wanna go back sooo badly, hopefully in october i will find a weekend where i can. i'm definitely used to living in florida now and i really like it. i love all the friends that i have and have made, and i still hope that i stay in touch with as many people from maryland as i can because i miss them a lot. well..i better start sparknoting my summer reading plays, the test is kinda tomorrow uh ohhhhh

<33 elisa

damn i had forggoten about xanga for awhile there. not too much is new tho. some girls from school are sleeping over tonight after the show so that should be mucho fuun! ughh my friggin parents won't let me go up to maryland to RM's homecoming, and i realllly reaaaallllyyy wanna go!! i can't even go to homecoming at doctor phillips cuz i'll be on the ny trip (which i am so excited for!! we're seeing shows in NY, visiting amazing colleges like nyu, juliard, ,and nc school for the arts). but still i wanna go to rm's homecoming to see everybody. i'm pretty sure i'm coming up for thanksgiving tho. gimme a call if anyone's in town then so i can see u! my dad is going up on monday to go get my grandma, but he won't let me miss school. about school..it's good, it's a really really good program that i am in. i've made some good friends so far, all of which are in the magnet (dont really have time to try to meet anyone else). it's soo intense and really difficult but it's just really amazing. i do miss rm so sooo much tho :( good luck to everyone who's starting school on monday! i'm already in my 4th week of school hah.

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moving has made me realize a lot. shit happens. and things change, whether u want them to or not and if everything has to change well then goddamnit i'm gonna change it for the better.

or try...

i'm tired of keeping everything inside..the only way i know how to let it out is thru tears, and i guess that helps but it just makes me feel weak and pathetic. and i don't really like expressing the shit in my life thru xanga bcuz i don't want to seem like some girl who thinks life is so rough and tough and just likes to bitch and complain all the time. it's not like life is bad or anything, in fact i'm really grateful for everything in my life right now. i'm grateful for having both my parents, whether they might piss me off a lot sometimes, i'm grateful for the people that care about me, or those that pretend to care..i'm grateful for jay who is always there for me in the end, i'm grateful for living in a house and i guess im grateful for all the other things like a pool or ipod or a nice purse but those things really don't matter to me and i'd do anything to trade them in for the things that i really want back. for instance, my life.

i don't want change to affect the frienships that i have. i can feel that it has already..through all the theater companies and usy and schools i've met a lot of people. a lot of them i keep in touch with, but there are only a couple that if i'm really bored or lonely or scared or sad that i know i can call and expect to get cheered up just by the sound of their voice and i love that. and now that i'm here i don't want those friendships to die. i know that people are gonna start growing up and moving once high school's over and going to college and starting lives and they probably won't talk to most of the people that they knew during their childhood, but it's always nice to have those people or even person that you know will ALWAYS be there. i guess i'm just rambling on about something probably not worth reading, but if you have atleast one person in your life that u can relate this to..don't let them slip away.